Someone found my website on Google and reached out to me yesterday, and I was happy to learn that he had been a significant part of your life, even though I had never heard about him from you. He told me little anecdotes about your time together, and the hopes you harbored for the future that had been taken away so suddenly.
Even though it was random, I was glad he made contact. He said it made him feel better, because he misses you more than he likes to admit, and it was of some comfort to me too. It was nice to know how loved you’ve always been, and always will be.
I know I should have written or visited you before today, as it has been more than a year since you left us, but it never really hit me until this year how difficult some things are to deal with. I don’t think I could fully process it when you left because it was so sudden, and because I couldn’t deal with the guilt I felt of not seeing you when you wanted me to just two days prior. But maybe in time, I will learn to make peace with my guilt, and comfort myself in knowing that you would have understood why I couldn’t see you that day.
I miss you now more than ever, and I hope you’re doing well. I also hope I will see you again very soon, and only you know why.