With sporadic outbursts in between
“Writing is a form of personal freedom. It frees us from the mass identity we see in the making all around us. In the end, writers will write not to be outlaw heroes of some underculture but mainly to save themselves, to survive as individuals.” – Don Delilo
Come on. You saw it coming.
As happens every couple of years, I’ve come to a dead end on the long and ever-perilous adventure known as blogging. It’s not so much writer’s block as it is a complete (albeit temporary) shutdown of my entire being, where I’ve become physically, mentally and emotionally incapable of gathering my thoughts and putting them down coherently on any surface — paper, keyboard, cement, whatever — beyond this rather lengthy explanation for my mental vacation.
This may have something to do with the fact that over the past few months, this blog, which has ever been my lifeline and sole outlet for speaking my mind without fear of being attacked by the Cerberus of the Under(blogging)world — judgment, ostracism and social persecution — has become a victim of that very same three-headed monster bred by the appallingly intrusive nature of the bonafide vapid narcissist.
It may also have something to do with the fact that I have recently lost the will to do anything (work, party, live altogether) except assume the fetal position on a couch indefiinitely; the only thing stopping me is the knowledge that Afham would be wasting his time trying to coax me out of my death trance, or at least off said couch.
Regardless of the reason, it is time for me to take a step back and a big breath, and try to realign my thoughts and emotions, and hopefully make some sense of what’s happening to me. And maybe, with it I’ll find the spirit and energy to write again.
I will not be gone long; in fact, as is with my previous attempts at hiatuses — and knowing my own overwhelming need to address the profane aspects of my life — I don’t expect this one to last more than a month. My Twitter will still be active, so that I may ensure the containment of my sanity, even if it’s only within its 140-character walls, so fellow Tweeters are more than welcome to follow me.
To the ones who have been following this blog faithfully, for all (your personal) intents and purposes, thank you and I will see you soon. And to the ones who just happened to hop on and stumble across this most untimely post, welcome, take a look around, and if you like what you see, come back soon.