“The theme is the theme of humiliation, which is the square root of sin, as opposed to the freedom from humiliation, and love, which is the square root of wonderful.” – Carson McCullers
With Thanksgiving around the corner, I am reminded once again that nothing is ever about me, that I am what I am today because of a series of people and events that have cropped up in my life. I am reminded that, for good or bad, I should be thankful for all of them, for it is because, and in spite, of them that I am still standing, still alive, still hopeful. And of all the things to be thankful for this Thanksgiving, I am most thankful for You.
I know that everything that has transpired this year, especially over the past month, has been Your way of teaching me a lesson. But in that lesson, I have been given a glimpse of Your infinite mercy, because You have finally accepted that I am not perfect — that I am, in fact, severely, unforgivably flawed — and You chose to take this mess away from me, rather than watch me try and subsequently fail to dig myself out of it.
And so I thank You, for saving me from making this mistake over and over again, for reminding me that I must always put others’ happiness before my own, and for giving me another chance this time around to do the right thing.