Monthly Archives: February 2015

Art jamming

Art jamming


art jammingA month ago, I interviewed someone for my column in The Star who told me that one of his interests outside of work is baking. “I bake insanely. Baking is very therapeutic for me, especially when I’m stressed with work,” he said. “Baking is a science; I don’t have to think about it, and I just follow the recipe. I love coming home and baking a cake or brownies, and I’ll take it to work the next day because I won’t eat it. So for those couple of hours, I don’t have to think about work; I’m just following a recipe and watching a cake rise. It’s amazing.”

Even though it didn’t occur to me then, art has the exact same effect on me. And I realized this just two days ago, when I went Art Jamming with Zaida, Kerina, Tasha, Kaiyisah, Muna and Danial.

I think my mother signed me up for art lessons when I started drawing on her dressing table. Every Friday, from 5 PM to 7 PM, for a full decade, I learned to draw and paint from the sweetest little Indian lady whose voice remained at the same pitch no matter how angry she got. I came to like it so much that I started producing paintings for my grandparents’ house and my father’s office, all of which now hang in my parents’ house. But at the end of those 10 years — after my SPM (a high school leaving exam of sorts) art exam, to be exact — I put down my brush and never picked it up again.

So when Kerina suggested we go to The Studio on Saturday, I actually paused to wonder if I even remembered how to pull a picture from my mind and just put it on paper (or canvas, as it were). Turns out, it was like riding a bicycle. And the best part was, since this wasn’t one of my two-hour art lessons, I didn’t need to pay attention to anything except the canvas in front of me (and to not getting paint on my white shorts), so it became extremely easy to tune everyone else out and paint.

After that, my mother told me that I should start painting more often (“It might take your grumpiness away.”), and I had to agree with her. I realized that I had forgotten how therapeutic painting could be, and how good it felt to not have to think about anything or anyone, even for an hour. And if I can give myself a couple of hours of that every day, then it might help me channel some of my rage in a less unhealthy way. And I’m not one to say no to any form of anger management.

anger management

Memorabilia upgrade

Memorabilia upgrade

There are some things we should have gotten rid of long ago, as a way of throwing away the past. Keeping things from the past only brings back unwanted memories — that is, unless the memories in question are meant to be brought back, in which case the present is of absolutely no importance at all. But when those things — material, physical things — can be burned and reborn from the ashes as something bigger, brighter and much more beautiful, then why the hell not?

In any case, my rings from my last relationship would definitely agree. It’s strange how changing even so small an object can bring about such a feeling of liberation just because the memories and the pain associated with it suddenly seem so far away.

BOOM

The relationship debris nobody is stupid enough to throw away

Love/Hate

Love/Hate
love/hate

Number 12. But wait…

You make me sad, you make me strong
You make me mad, you make me long
for you
You make me live, you make me die
You make me laugh, you make me cry
for you

I hate you, then I love you
Then I love you, then I hate you
Then I love you
I love you more

For whatever you do
I never never never want to be in love
with anyone but you

– Celine Dion and Luciano Pavarotti, I Hate You Then I Love You