Monthly Archives: February 2009


Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dream.” – Paulo Coelho

Every Warrior of the Light has felt afraid of going into battle.

Every Warrior of the Light has, at some time in the past, lied or betrayed someone.

Every Warrior of the Light has trodden a path that was not his.

Every Warrior of the Light has suffered for the most trivial of reasons. Every Warrior of the Light has, at least once, believed he was not a Warrior of the Light.

Every Warrior of the Light has failed in his spiritual duties.

Every Warrior of the Light has said ‘yes’ when he wanted to say ‘no.’

Every Warrior of the Light has hurt someone he loved.

That is why he is a Warrior of the Light, because he has been through all this and yet has never lost hope of being better than he is.

Paulo Coelho, Warrior of the Light –

Searching for a door

“Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” – Albert Einstein

It’s been a while, hasn’t it? I don’t remember the last time it felt like this. The furthest I can think back to is about a month ago, but even then I’m sure I’m mistaken, and it has in fact been significantly longer.

It’s a phase, a pattern, that occurs maybe once a month and lasts about two or three weeks. And I think the last time it occurred was two months ago, but after that everything changed and I thought that things would get better, that I would get better.

And now here it is again. Almost three weeks into this Phase, and it’s beginning to wear off. It’s something I’ve seen so often and come to know so well that I can almost feel when it’s about to die down. And it’s begun to affect me more than I expected it to, but it’s my fault. I chose to go along with this Phase yet again, reintroducing my head to the same wall I’ve been banging against for almost a year, and yet thinking I could get out of it more easily — or at least less injured — this time than ever before. But nothing has changed. Nothing will ever change.

But no matter. Soon enough there will be no more phases of any sort. I’ve done enough.

The 81st Annual Academy Awards

oscarI’ll admit it: one of the reasons I watch the Academy Awards is the dresses. But really, is it not so for most women? It’s been hailed as the fashion event to watch, with the world’s top designers all thrown together in one place, and press releases issued by fashion houses hours before the show to stake their claim on the stars who are wearing their designs to the greatest awards show of the year. It’s how people know about the daring, unconventional Elie Saab gown Halle Berry slopped all over the year she won the Best Actress Oscar, the sweet pink Chanel and vibrant yellow Lanvin-Castillo Nicole Kidman and Jada Pinkett-Smith wore respectively the year Halle Berry slopped all over her Elie Saab, the regal Vera Wang that made Keira Knightley look just a little less like a beanpole, the dramatic Christian Dior that Charlize Theron gift-wrapped herself in (contrary to most of the fashion critics, I absolutely love this gown, and I wish I had the height and frame to pull it off), and, of course, The Swan, a dress so heinously infamous it needs no other form of introduction, and whose designer and endorser nobody cared to know anymore.

Another reason I watch the Academy Awards is the host. Steve Martin, Billy Crystal, Chris Rock, Ellen DeGeneres, and my favorite — Whoopi Goldberg. And this year, when Hugh Jackman was announced as the host of the 81st Academy Awards, I went, “Ooooohhh!” right before my left eyebrow hoisted itself up. As much of a fan as I am, I had never seen Hugh Jackman in any comedic roles, and God knows everyone was in need of some comic relief to lift them out — if only for one night — of the slump the flailing economy had stomped them into.

But after finally catching a rerun of the show, I have to say that this year’s show was one of the most entertaining I’ve watched in a long time, and largely thanks to the host. It was extremely refreshing to see him in a role that didn’t require metal of any sort, and even though he had previously hosted the 2004 Tony Awards, this Oscar stint has succeeded in breaking him out of the buffed-up superhero stereotype. The man can sing, dance, play host and work his charm in a way that is rarely seen in today’s woefully synthetic, talentless world conquered by reality shows, and the performances made this year’s show the one most worth watching in recent years.

Hugh Jackman’s opening number with Anne Hathaway


“The musical is back!” With BeyoncĂ© Knowles, Zac Efron, Vanessa Hudgens, Amanda Seyfried and Benjamin Cooper